I started this playlist when I started talking to Nat in April this year and continued adding to it with the songs with asterisks being after we broke up. I am sure I will continue adding songs to it as I process our breakup however, below are the lyrics of the songs that stand out from my current perspective (broken up less than a week).
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- Raw Raw by K. Flay
- “It’s hard to escape the wounds of the past
- Every time I feel something real, I wanna take it back
- Sensitive, I’m peeling back my skin
- You got me raw, raw
- So emotional
- Raw, raw
- Oh, I feel exposed”
- The Cops by K. Flay
- “You’re turning my insides, you’re making me sick
- But you’re such a goddamn pro, never really know if you’re faking it
- You’re turning my insides, you’re making me wish
- That I was a better girl, with a steady hand, that you wanted to be with”
- Closer by Palaye Royale
- “I wanna fuck you like an animal
- I wanna feel you from the inside
- I wanna fuck you like an animal
- My whole existence is flawed
- You get me closer to God”
- Overdose by grandson
- “I think it’s time for a change
- ‘Cause the bad’s been slowly getting worse
- And this fast lane living, it’s a curse
- Better tell me what’s your life worth
- I think it’s time for a change
- ‘Cause the drugs don’t work
- Anymore, anymore”
- Freak (feat. REI AMI) by Sub Urban
- “Play with me ’til you’ve found another toy
- Let me be your freak show, I could be your favorite monster
- Rattle my whole cage, remind me why I can’t be fostered
- Let me be your freak show, I could be your favorite monster
- Lock me up, don’t let me out ’cause you know I can’t help myself”
- Crop Circles by Odie Leigh
- “And I, I don’t think I’ve changed
- No, and I’m too scared to stay the same
- So my carpets got crop circles
- My carpets got crop circles these days”
- I Don’t Wanna Talk (I Just Wanna Dance) by Glass Animals
- “Don’t wanna talk, baby, I just wanna dance
- I don’t wanna talk, no more living in the past, baby
- Don’t wanna talk, baby, I just wanna dance”
- Wildflower and Barley by Hoizer and Allison Russel
- “Some close to the surface, some close to the casket
- (I feel as) useful as dirt
- Put my body to work
- Mmh (ooh), mmh (ooh)”
- I Know that He Loves Me by Autoheart
- “I know that he loves me
- I know that he loves me
- He comes and he goes
- But I know that he loves me
- I know that he loves me
- Yes, I know that he loves me”
- clouds by JVKE
- “Every time I need a pick me up
- You hit me up
- One hit is enough”
- high, high, high by Camylio
- “I feel it in my blood, darlin’, when you hold me
- I can feel the chemicals
- You took the man I was, burned away the broken parts
- And left the beautiful”
- Home To You by Sigrid
- “When I don’t know what to say
- When I don’t know what to do
- There’s a room I need to sit in
- Surrounded by my favorite view
- And I need a hand to hold
- Someone to tell the truth
- Would it be okay if I came home to you?”
- Piece of Work by Loren Gray
- Yeah, I know we got conflicts
- But let’s cross that bridge when we get to it
- Oh, I know, ain’t nothing that we can’t fix
- But let’s cross that bridge when we get to it
- I’m a piece of work (ah)
- But I’m a work of art (yeah)
- You put it in the work (ah)
- And we could work it out (now)”
- Balance by Lucy Spraggan
- “If you could stand back, I used to say that
- I thought I needed space to find my balance
- But I might need a hand and
- If you could be that I might need some help to find my balance
- Balance”
- BETTER by Royal & the Serpent
- “It’s all a nightmare
- I’m losing it big time
- Been on this hamster wheel for the last four years
- And I’m fucking tired
- I can do better
- I can be better than this”
- I Kill Everything by deathbyromy & AWAY
- “I kill everything I fuck
- Fuck everything I kill
- I kill everything I fuck and I’m proud of it”
- SICK PRETTY MIND (SIDE B) by UPSAHL
- “Welcome to my, my
- My sick pretty mind, mind
- It’s twisted and dark, but it’s kind of a vibe, uh”
- Born Without a Heart by Faouzia
- “I’m an angel, tell me what you mean by that
- I take it all and I will never give it back”
- Todo Cambio by Camila
- “Y fue tan fácil
- Quererte tanto
- Algo que no imaginaba
- Fue entregarte mi amor
- Con una mirada”
- (And it was so easy
- Loving you so much
- Something I never imagined
- Was to give you all my love
- With one look)
- Mi Persona Favorita by Rio Roma
- “Desde, el día en que te vi
- Sentí como que ya te conocía
- Un minuto fue suficiente y ya sentía quererte”
- (Since the day that I saw you
- I felt like I already knew you
- One minute was enough and I felt that I loved you)
- Have I Told You by Matthew Mole
- “You are the puddle of mud
- In the pigsty of my life
- And I hope that you know what I’m trying to say to you
- I guess that I love you”
- Anywhere by Rita Ora
- “I know we’ve got to get away
- Someplace where no one knows our name
- We’ll find the start to something new
- Just take me anywhere, take me anywhere
- Anywhere away with you”
- Dig the Crazy by Faith Marie
- “No heed to their warnings cause careful gets boring
- How could they know what’s good for me?
- Sun goes up and the sun goes down
- Day after day oh my conscience she drowns”
- You and I by Pvris
- “I know it’s warmer where you are
- And it’s safer by your side
- But right now I can’t be what you want
- Just give it time
- And if you and
- I Can make it through the night
- And if you and I
- Can keep our love alive, we’ll fight”
- In the End by Beth Crowley
- “Our twin flames could ignite the whole world
- For each other
- But something this powerful (powerful)
- And dangerous (dangerous)
- Will burn until there’s nothing left
- I can tell that we’re going to destroy one another In the end”
- Intuition by Ellie Goulding
- “You’re under my skin
- ‘Bout to get in and I’m feeling so much
- Been having visions
- Colorless mess when I’m out of your touch
- You take it away
- After one taste and nothing hurts”
- Loner by Maggie Lindermann
- “I know I said I’d stop before I drown
- But I don’t like the thought of coming down
- Yeah, I’m a loner and I like it that way
- I like a dark room with nobody but pain”
- Self-Destructive by MOTHICA
- “We can’t help it, If we want this
- I’ll be selfish, I’ll be self-destructive
- We can’t help it, If we want this
- I’ll be selfish, I’ll be self-destructive
- I don’t wanna wait, I don’t wanna wait
- But, I know that it’s too soon
- I could run away, but I wanna stay”
- Moderation by Florence + The Machine
- “I’ve never made it with moderation
- No, I’ve never understood
- All the feeling was all or nothing
- And I took everything I could
- Can’t hold it back, I can’t take the tension
- Oh, I’m trying to be good
- Want me to love you in moderation
- Well don’t you know, I wish I could”
- Everyone Adores You (quiet) by Matt Maltese
- “You can act all shy
- But you know that I want you
- In the dead of night I want to live with you
- So terrified of the road that takes you
- Me too
- Don’t modify, everyone adores you
- At least I do”
- Pierre by Ryn Weaver
- “And then I found me a lover who could play the bass
- He’s kinda quiet, but his body ain’t
- Spend the days dreaming and the nights awake
- Doin’ things we know we shouldn’t do”
- bury a friend by Billie Eilish
- “What do you want from me? Why don’t you run from me?
- What are you wondering? What do you know?
- Why aren’t you scared of me? Why do you care for me?”
- 10 Feet Tall by Cavetown
- “I wanna be ten feet tall
- I wanna eat fire and snow
- I wanna scare everyone
- I want to collect swords
- Stab my walls when I’m bored
- Wear clothes made of old socks
- Which are missing their pairs”
- the alternative by Lyn Lapid
- “Since I found myself another half
- Part of me says, “Don’t get too attached”
- What if time’s gonna number our days?
- Guess my heart’s gonna break, either way
- Love is a risk
- But what’s the alternative?
- Maybe sleeping at night all alone
- Going it all on my own”
- Voices In My Head by Falling In Reverse
- “The voices in my head keep telling me I’m gonna (die)
- And I don’t wanna talk about the drama, I’m trauma (tized)
- They’re tellin’ me I’m fine but we both know that’s a fuckin’ (lie)
- I’m losing my mind but I don’t wanna talk about”
- Lose Control (Live) by Teddy Swims & Freak Freely
- “Problematic, problem is
- I want your body like a fiend, like a bad habit
- Bad habit’s hard to break when I’m with you
- Yeah, I know, I could do it on my own
- But I want that real full moon black magic and it takes two”
- Half-Life by X Ambassadors
- “Tired of tearing my heart out
- Just to feel it beat
- Tired of crying my eyes out
- Just to fall asleep
- All the stupid things I’ve tried
- To medicate my lonely nights
- You got here just in time”
- To the Moon by NoMBe
- “Let me take you to the moon baby, baby (baby, baby)
- I got a table there for two baby, baby (baby, baby)
- Unless you got better shit to do this evening
- Don’t keep me waiting
- Depending how I feel, I might let you take the wheel”
- High by Stephen Sanchez
- “I couldn’t let go of the sonnet
- Look how out of hand it’s gotten
- Is it wrong for me to want this?
- Well, baby, all I do is want it”
- Insomnia by The Moss
- “But I feel so dead
- The moment that you leave
- Guess that I’ve just never been In love before
- It freaks me out
- Waking up, next to you
- It feels too good to be true”
- Easy to Love by Bryce Savage
- “She’s easy to love, oh, and easy to hate
- She tastes like a drug, and she feels just the same
- Bitter to the tongue, but a thrill for your brain
- A little bit crazy, but it’s worth all the pain”
- Careful What You Wish For (the doctor said to) by Jack Harris
- “I miss my old emotions
- I miss the pain I used to have
- I’m going through the motions
- I’d sell my soul to make me sad”
- God Damnit by ILLENIUM & Call Me Karizma
- “If there’s a God
- Why’d he make me?
- All of these flaws Is all that I see
- If there’s a God I don’t believe
- Someone as perfect as you would love me
- Goddamnit”
- Sweet Tooth by Scott Helman
- “I hold hands with cosmic entities
- I’ll take this tube ride if I please I got this sweet tooth, baby
- Yeah, I got this sweet tooth, baby
- I exploit my opportunities
- Some broken hearts, numb cavities”
- Wondering Why by The Red Clay Stays
- “And I don’t know what happened
- But it sure don’t add up on paper
- But when I close my eyes late at night
- You can bet I thank my maker
- She keeps on lovin’ me, loves me the way I am”
- Love Alone by Katelyn Tarver
- “I need to know if I should raise or fold
- My heart is stuck on hold
- I wanna know which way to go
- I can’t love alone
- Oh I can’t stay here wonderin’ if you want me
- If you don’t take me, you should leave”
- Sober Up (feat. Rivers Cuomo) by AJR
- “Won’t you help me sober up
- Growing up it made me numb
- And I want to feel something again”
- I Do Not Care by marggie lindermann
- “I’m not afraid anymore not afraid
- Forever is a long time but I wouldn’t mind spending it by your side
- Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile
- I wouldn’t mind it, no
- I wouldn’t mind it at all”
- Alone by Nico Collins
- “This is a story ’bout a broken boy
- With his headphones in just to block out the noise
- Of everyone around him telling him the way to go
- So he walks the world alone”
- Devil by Moon Walker
- “I’m just a canvas reflecting back what your system’s painting”
- Tell Me You Love Me by Glantis & Throttle
- “You, for heavens sake, you take my breath away
- When you’re not even trying…
- How on earth did I find myself so full in love
- We could be the perfect match
- And what’s so wrong with that? Mm”
- Falling by Trevor Daniel
- “My last made me feel like I would never try again
- But when I saw you, I felt something I never felt
- Come closer, I’ll give you all my love”
- Break Down by Vin Jay
- “Hey, livin’ like a mess, tryna numb my pain
- Battlin’ the demons in my mind all day
- Either I’m fucked up or I’m insane
- Pop a pill, have a drink, don’t break down”
- Dear Alcohol by Dax
- “I take a shot every time because man, it helps me escape
- I’m taking care of these people but no one takes care of me
- I wanna talk to somebody but I feel no one relates
- I need better now
- I think I’ve lost my way”
- Nails by Call Me Karizma
- “I’ma leave here bruised and bloody
- Use me till my use is nothing…
- Dark and twisted
- We’re sadistic
- Can you heal my sickness?”
- Amor Completo by Mon Laferte
- “¿Cómo se puede sentir
- Tantas cosas en tan poco tiempo, y no morir?
- Tú puedes hacer un gran nido en mi universo
- Puedes hacer lo que quieras conmigo”
- (How is it possible to feel
- So many things in so little time and not die?
- You can make a grand nest in my universe
- You can do what you want with me)
- Chachacha by Josean Log
- “Dame de tu vida y de tu tiempo
- Suficientes para ver
- Dentro de tus ojos el momento
- Que me obligue a renacer”
- (Give me pieces of your life and of your time
- Enough to see
- In your eyes the moment
- That will push me to be reborn)
- Too Sweet by Hozier
- “If you’re drunk on life, babe
- I think it’s great
- But while in this world
- I think I’ll take my whiskey neat
- My coffee black and my bed at three
- You’re too sweet for me
- You’re too sweet for me”
- Figure You Out by VOILA
- “I could love you with my eyes closed
- Kiss you with a blindfold
- Figure you out (figure you out, yeah)
- I might hold you with my hands tied
- Show you I’m the right guy to figure you out”
- I Was Made for Lovin’ You (from The Fall Guy) by YUNGBLUD
- “I was made for lovin’ you, baby
- You were made for lovin’ me
- I can give it all to you, baby
- Can you give it all to me?”
- Church by Fall Out Boy
- “If you were church, whoo
- I’d get on my knees, yeah
- Confess my love, I’d know where to be
- My sanctuary, you’re holy to me”
- On Fire by Once Monsters
- “He is gonna blow your mind
- He is gonna blow your mind
- When he makes it to the top and gives it all he’s got
- He is gonna blow your mind”
- Faded by Leomind
- “Do it just to make me feel
- Again again I wanted something real
- To just escape for a moment
- Trying everything to make me heal
- You and I, I thought we had a deal
- If I have you I’m not lonely”
- Antidote by FLETCHER
- “I get high, I get high
- I get low, I get low
- You’re my dopamine state
- You’re my sanity dose”
- Love Lies by Khalid & Normani
- “Don’t be afraid to tell me if you ain’t with it (you ain’t with it)
- I see you’re focused, yeah you’re so independent (independent)
- It’s hard for me to open up, I’ll admit it (I’ll admit it)
- You’ve got some shit to say and I’m here to listen”
- Hope by Nathan Wagner
- “Got a million problems
- Got a million scars
- Got a million reasons not
- To open up my heart
- But the trauma vanquishes
- In perfect love
- When you know my darkest parts
- Don’t turn and run”
- Fire on Fire (Bonus Track) by Sam Smith
- “Fire on fire would normally kill us
- But this much desire, together, we’re winners
- They say that we’re out of control and some say we’re sinners
- But don’t let them ruin our beautiful rhythms
- ‘Cause when you unfold me and tell me you love me
- And look in my eyes
- You are perfection, my only direction
- It’s fire on fire, mmm
- It’s fire on fire”
- I Know You (From The “Fifty Shades of Grey” Soundtrack) by Skylar Grey
- “I believe, I believe there’s love in you
- Grid locked on the dusty avenues
- Inside your heart, just afraid to go…
- I believe, I believe you could love me
- But you’re lost on the road to misery…
- I have been patient, but slowly I’m losing faith
- Please, I know you baby
- I know you baby”
- Let Eachother Go by Brdgs*
- “Maybe you we’re right when you said it was way too soon
- Maybe you were wrong when you took me into your room
- Maybe we were always, maybe we were always doomed
- I just want you to know
- I was in love with your soul
- In love with your soul
- Now we both here alone
- And we we’re in love, but it’s gone
- And we can’t keep holding on, so
- Maybe it’s time we let each other go”
- BOOM by X Ambassadors*
- “My feet go boom boom boom
- Walking away from you
- That’s what I’m gonna do
- I got the same old shoes with a new attitude
- Why would I sing the blues for you?
- I said, hey, uh huh, you can’t stop me
- ‘Cause my pain, uh huh, is gasoline (Ooh)
- I can’t wait, no, for nobody
- If you break my heart
- It’s one, two, three
- Boom boom boom”
- i pick loneliness by Munn & Delanie Leclerc*
- “Okay, you’re right, I’m the one to blame
- But give me time, you’ll see that I can change
- You could quit and throw this all away
- But then it’s you who breaks the promises we made”
- Cursed (Philosophical Sessions) by Jacob Lee*
- “I think that I’ve had enough
- I don’t know who I can trust
- Leave my secrets alone
- They aren’t for you to know”
- Longshot by Catfish and the Bottlemen*
- “Why we lapped it up when we’re wise enough, who knows?
- How it goes, forgive me, honey
- But we’re wise enough to know
- How it goes, forgive me, honey
- ‘Cause we know this feeling all a little too well”
- Me Duele Amarte by Reik*
- “Me duele amarte
- Los sueños que eran para ti
- Se pierden con cada palabra
- Con cada momento que espere vivir”
- (It hurts to love you
- The dreams that were meant for you
- Are lost with every word
- With every moment that I hoped to live)
- You and I (Stripped) by Pvris*
- “But for now we stay so far
- ‘Til our lonely limbs connect
- I can’t keep you in these arms
- So I’ll keep you in my mind”
- Let You Break My Heart Again (Live) by Laufey*
- “One day, I will stop falling in love with you
- Some day, someone will like me like I like you”
- When You Were Mine by Hayd*
- “If I knew the things you would do
- The scars you would leave
- The trust I would lose
- Would I run run run away
- Would I run run run away”
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